Life Without Mom

You ever wonder how life would go on without a mother in  your life? I'm pretty sure I could survive without my own mother. But I don't believe my family would survive without me. As a matter of fact, I fully believe they'd be lost.

Morpheus - The Dream by ~Shelob-

Not that I have any wish to go anywhere. But once in awhile I need a mommy break. So my routine is after dinner I take a 1-2 hour nap while everyone else is doing their own thing in the living room. If I didn't do this I'd be one very cranky witchy momma - which is not a pretty sight.

Mainly DH plays on Facebook, my DD watches TV, and my little man gets in trouble. Yesterday he got in particularly big trouble. See my daughter thought it would be nice to give my toddler son his sippy bottle. Normally this wouldn't be a problem, however my son has discovered he can make puddles of water if he bends the nipple on the sippy. He did this yesterday, on top of the cable box. Needless to say it was toast. Thankfully no major catastrophe happened. But I had to go buy a new cable box for my MIL. Ah the joys of parenting!

It makes me wonder during my little rendezvous with sweet sweet Morpheus if my children aren't just on their own. Obviously some lack of supervision happened yesterday. While I'd like to put all blame squarely on my husbands shoulders, I know it won't do any good because he is who he is and its futile for any woman to try to change a man.

Still, I hope some lesson has come out of this. For one, get a new sippy that doesn't leak (IF they exist). Two, find a new place for the cable box.

Have a Wonderful Beltane!

Well everyone its that time again. One of my favorite times is May 1st! Beltane is the celebration of halfway between Spring/Summer. It's time of fertility and quite frankly, getting it on! Those who are trying to conceive, this is the Universes fertile time so pretend your bunnies and chain your LO to the bed. hehe.

Magaly over on Pagan Culture mentioned she's feeling a bit...er... frisky. Those that are sensitive to the Universal Energy might also feel the same. Nothing wrong with indulging, just be careful for those of you not wanting a child in the next 9 months. Thankfully I'm covered. Doc did away with my baby making capabilities for good. Woo hoo for no need for birth control. :)

So what are you doing today to celebrate May day? Right now I'm baking Oatmeal raisin cookies. Later I'll be setting up a prosperity alter. Its a great time to draw new opportunities to you.

Enjoy the day and don't forget to dance!

by ZingerBug.com

Do You Consider Pagans Conservative or Liberal?

Some recent events has made me re-evaluate some assumptions and stereotyping I've made about Pagans. I know, you can't generalize any group and have a true view of that groups dynamic. Were all individuals and we vary so much in beliefs. But I've always considered Pagans to be more liberal and/or accepting of others. I'm not just talking politically either. I'm talking about life choices such as parenting styles, sexuality, and various other taboo topics.

"The New Way to Calm Crying and Help Your Baby Sleep Longer (DVD)"

In your opinion, do you think Pagans are more conservative or liberal? 

Do you consider yourself to be conservative or liberal? 

 I'm definitely more liberal. I don't care what kind of parenting style you have as long as its not harmful to the child and it works for you. I don't care what your sexuality is as long as its not harmful to others and is consenting. I understand some tenants of Republicans and respect their opinion while also respectfully disagreeing. I've always thought that if we are going to live in a society that is close nit, we need to work together to help the whole and not just out to help ourselves.

I've added a poll to the right asking this question. Please vote and then you can expand on your answer in the comments section of this post.

No Follow Through

So yesterday I talked about the financial gain candle magick I did. My husband had gotten a phone call for a job interview. He was interviewed over the phone and unfortunately they said he "isn't qualified" because we live so far away. Shouldn't it be our business whether its worthwhile to drive a certain distance to get to a job? And isn't it enough that we've explained that drive would be temporary since once he got the job we'd look for housing closer? How are we suppose to get ahead of no one will give us a chance?

Here we are, on state assistance. We are doing our best to get off of it. We are doing the job searches, DH works so we get cash assistance at Goodwill. Which btw is little more than slave labor. If you miss even one day they take the cash and food stamps away for an entire month. I personally think if they want you to work they should treat it like a job. No employer would get away with taking your whole paycheck away for one day of missed work!

But anyway. I was very bummed yesterday. As the day progressed I just kept getting angrier and angrier until I had to reach out to a fellow Pagan momma and let her talk me of an edge. Because I was seriously thinking of doing a bad witchy magick against DH's ex-boss. He was fired unjustly and I know I should forgive and forget and let Karma do her thing. But its so hard. Especially when DH seems to be unhirable by anyone.

We really need to move closer to jobs for better opportunities. But without money to do that (and we can't get state housing) its just not possible. I need a magical break! I'm trying any mundane and magical way I can. So far all my attempts fail. Maybe we are suppose to be here. I don't know. I know my mother wishes we'd move back to Kentucky. But going backward is not the answer. We are meant to be in Ohio. Even after all this, I still believe that.

Keep Candle Magick Simple

Hi Everyone! I know its been a bit since I've wrote. I've noticed there a few more people following my blog so a big wave and hello to them.

Last night I did a little mini spell again. Just a green candle, some herbs that represent change and/or financial gain, and a few simple words. I let my husband write it. I sort of chastised my husband for making it so simple. It went something like... You know what we want, help me!
Not those exact words but you get the point Dh was trying to make.

Do you find that its beneficial to keep rituals simple? Or do you need more elaborate rituals? I like a combination of both. Since I wasn't inspired by words yesterday, I had to let DH come up with it. It seems to have worked. I got a call for Dh today about an application he put in last week. DH was at "work". When I say work I mean the states version of slave labor. He's assigned a job by the state so we receive TANF. The thing is he works basically a full time job for pennies. But that's going off on a completely separate issue.

I took the cell phone and the phone number up to DH so he could call them on his break. So hopefully he will have an interview and possibly a job soon! Though the job is located 2 hrs away. We would have to move, which I don't mind if he gets the job.

I hope this all falls into place. I still have the candle and herbs. When DH comes home I will burn a little bit more of it again to keep the positive energy going.

Another point, when you go to blow out a candle, if it doesn't blow out do you leave it going? I always view that as a sign that it doesn't wish to go out yet and I let it burn. My tools all have a mind of their own sometimes. ;) Yesterday I went to blow the candle out when we were preparing to do the dishes. I was blowing right over top of it and it wouldn't go out, so I just left it alone till later. When it did go out, I was able to blow it out at a distance fairly easily.

In what ways do you keep your craft simple?

I Wish...

I wish I may, I wish I might, I wish my wishes would come true tonight! Haha. Yeah I use to wish upon a star as a kid a lot! I remember when my parents were driving home at night I would look up at the stars and feel the moon and stars energy. I would silently wish for things - things I knew I'd never have.

Fast forward to now, and my night time routine is a little bit more dull. I mostly stay awake thinking my son is going to wake up any minute anyway so I browse the internet finding interesting things to look at. Nothings changed about making wishes I know won't come true however.

The other night I was on Youtube and found corset training weight loss. Now, I've always thought corsets were a thing of the past unless you wanted to give your significant other a wild night. Evidently, I was wrong.

Some people are wearing corsets full time to shape their torso into a more womanly figure. Some are going too far until they look just plain sick. Others have defined their waist into a lovely v shape which I envy.

Honestly if I had the money to shell out on a custom corset, I'd be tempted in trying it. I've watched a lot of informational videos on waist training and visited a few other websites. All have said for plus sized girls like myself, its possible to loose a significant amount of weight in a matter of months, but ultimately corset training should take years.

Sigh.. maybe one day.

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Only My Daughter

Today all of us went to the YMCA. Just Sierra (my daughter) and me were swimming. Father and son played out in the hall and watched. I noticed when Sierra got close that she had makeup on. This wouldn't have been a problem if I also didn't know that she hadn't had time to put it on after school before we left the house. So I ask her, "When did you put eyeshadow on?" She told me on the bus. Her friend had some. Hmmm. My detective mommy brain goes into suspicion mode. So I asks, before school or after school? Well of course she said in the morning. We have a rule in this house. She's allowed to wear makeup only at home. My mother had the same rule when I was my daughters age. When Sierra is in 6th grade then she'll be allowed to wear makeup (tastefully) at school. Sierra is only 10 and in 4th grade.

After giving the speech about doing wrong and when she can were makeup at school, she starts asking if she could please please please wear makeup at school because everyone else does. No my darling dear. I know you really want to, but no you may not!

But I had to smile. I remember when I was her age. Oh  yes dear daughter, I know all the tricks of the trade. I wore makeup before my mother was ready to see it on me too.

And then she does another thing that reminds me she's my daughter. Getting ready to leave the YMCA, she's in the bathroom stall next to me and I hear a plop and then she starts crying. Somehow, someway, she fell off the toilet seat. Silly silly girl. It's probably my fault she's so clumsy. I was too at her age. She's ok, just has a sore bottom. But I couldn't stop myself from laughing a little.

I've come to realize that motherhood has turned me into a prude. There was a young couple kissing and hugging and otherwise doing "young love" kind of things. I saw my daughter watching them and suddenly I wanted that couple to stop. I've never been uncomfortable with public displays of affection. Hell I was that couple when I was young! And doing much more naughty stuff than that couple was doing. But thinking of my daughter who will be a teen in just a few short years, I'm ready to embrace my mommy prudish morals!