Wednesday, February 29, 2012

No Longer, PBP

I've been posting a Pagan Blog Project post every Friday. I just want to let my readers know that I've decided to stop participating in PBP. Those that I followed through PBP's FB page I'll continue to read.

Rowan wants everyones posts to be specifically about Paganism. This blog isn't just about Paganism. This blog is suppose to be about my life as a Pagan and creative person. I feel like if I followed Rowan's "rules" I would be stepping away from what my blog is all about.

I also don't like anyone telling me how to write blog posts. I just feel boxed in by PBP's guidelines and that's not what I, as a Pagan, am about.

So I hope those PBP followers will keep reading and commenting. But now its time to get back to what this blog was originally intended to be.

And now I'm off to spend some time at the Innana's Spiritual Center women's group. If your in the Chillicothe area, stop on by! 

What Broom Closet?

Musings of  A Magical Mom asks:
Are you now, or have you ever been in the broom closet?  Why?  How did you/will you come out?

I must admit, I heard the term "broom Closet" much later than when I first decided to tell everyone I am Eclectic Wiccan. It never really occurred to me not to share who I am. Though in school I did select people to tell who I trusted. I knew those who were unfamiliar or unfriendly toward me didn't need to know. But I consider everyone's religion a need to know basis. So I guess I've never really been "in" a broom closet. I'd think that would be very hard to do for me. I'd feel like I was lying to friends and family and that's just not something I can pull off. I'm a terrible at lies because the truth is always written all over my face. 

Love & Light for All Going Through A Hard Time

Lately there has been a lot going with student shootings at Chardon, Ohio High School and then the tornado's that hit in the Midwest, US. A lot of people are suffering today so I just want to take a moment to send loving energy to those people missing their loved ones and dealing with the aftermath of disaster.

So to all who are suffering, here is some healing energy for you.

Blessings, Love, and Light my brothers and sisters.

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The Spring-Time Mission

So yesterday my daughter decided she wanted to take a walk. In the interest of keeping her busy and because I wanted some pictures, I told her to go "find Spring". I think that would also be a fun prompt for people studying photography at accredited online colleges. Mostly she took pictures of dead grass like this one.

And this one. Their both pretty but not a whole lot of green yet. Though perhaps that will change with the spring-like thunderstorm we are having right now.

She did take a picture of some birds, and we've been hearing them chirp a lot more lately. Those specs in the sky are the birds.

I hate Winter, so I'm glad this year has been mild. Though I'm under no illusion that it's over yet. I hate the weather yo-yo effect we always have. One minute it feels great and the next your bundling up in a coat again.

What is your favorite season? Do you have any family traditions to welcome Springtime?

Sunday, February 26, 2012

Linky & Google Friend Connect

In light of the recent news that Google will be forcing us to use Google + instead of Google friend connect, I've decided to try out Linky. Looks like it works just like Google friend connect. I hate Google plus so hopefully this will be a better option. If you've used Linky before let me know what you think. And please could someone make sure its working correctly?

Saturday, February 25, 2012

Emergency Smudge

Today while visiting with my friend who runs the Inanna Spiritual Center in Chillicothe, OH she had a visitor come in off the street. Normally this isn't a problem and is a welcome experience. However once in awhile someone who is less than desirable walks in. Today unfortunately was one of those days. So I found myself in need of an emergency smudge.

I've talked before about how to spiritually protect your person, but your surroundings also need to be cleansed when you've had a visitor that leaves their energy behind that isn't healthy. In today's instance we had a slightly judgmental visitor. Her energy was all over the place and very chaotic. I know she is very much confused on many issues and hopefully the talk she had with Lynn will help her find her way.

Unfortunately because of the street visitors energy we missed an opportunity to help someone else dealing with depression. Lynn had come to find me to "volunteer" my services as a spiritual counselor, but in all the confusion the person left. I'm sure the atmosphere caused by the street visitor was only making this persons depression worse. Hopefully they will come back and Lynn will be able to help, though I would have liked the chance to make a difference today. I just hope wherever she went, she finds the help she is seeking.

After that I decided the place needed an energy cleanse. So I borrowed some sweet grass (I would normally use Sage but it was unavailable, so this was the next best alternative.) from Lynn and smudged everyone who wished as well as the building. I'm sure it will need it again soon, but at least today I left the place feeling a little better.

I think in the future, I should carry a little emergency spirit pack. I can see where it would be useful to carry a stick of sage and perhaps a few favorite crystals as well.

What else should go in an emergency spirit pack? I'd love to hear your ideas.

Friday, February 24, 2012

PBP: Death

I've been pretty uninspired by the letter D. So I guess I'll just fall back on a simple topic and see what becomes of it.

Most people fear Death and I suppose I have a healthy dose of wanting to live just like everyone else. But I don't feel that we should avoid death at all costs. I have respect for those who know they are dying and don't put their whole family in major debt just to live. I wouldn't want my final expenses to run into the many thousands just to die anyway. I understand the want to live, but honestly is it worth spending thousands of dollars for 1-5 more years of life?

Then there's the thought that nature has her own time table. I'm not saying we should never take medicine or cure illnesses and disease. But at some point you have to realize death is inevitable. Isn't prolonging the inevitable a fools goal? It is to me.

What about you? If you were diagnosed with a terminal illness with no hope of a cure, would you strive to seek any treatment to delay death no matter the costs or would you enjoy the time you had left?

Thursday, February 23, 2012

PBP: Connecting

Prompt: Connecting

Lately, the topic of connecting with other Pagans has been in my mind, even if just in passing, or it has come up in conversations around me. So I'm asking all of you today....

How do you connect with other Pagans?
Do you have a local group you can meet with on a regular basis?
If you can't connect with local people, where online do you connect with people of like mind?
What's the hardest part about connecting with other Pagans?

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I have a local group in Chillicothe I connect to. Not all of them are Wiccan. Were just a mix mash of Pagan people who gather together for community. But on the whole I am a solitary creature. Think of me like a cat. I like to socialize on my terms. Online I'm a bit more outgoing. As a matter of fact one of the first reasons I decided to make a blog is to connect with other Pagans. I appreciate every one of my readers! 
I've tried other Pagan forums and such. But I find the best way to connect with others is through blogs and Facebook. 

Wednesday, February 22, 2012

Sleep Deprived

I nap a lot during the day, especially when DH is home. Right now he's between job assignments so he's home a lot. Which is good and bad. The good is that I can catch up on sleep sooner, the bad is that I'm going nuts and just wish he'd go find a job. DH was going to go to London which is about 2 hrs drive away to put in applications yesterday. But yesterday morning he said there was snow on the ground [That melted before I woke up] and he didn't know if it was going to snow again so wanted to stay home. I checked the news and told him no snow predicted, but somehow that didn't change his mind.

I know my husband has a mental illness. I know he has some anxiety about going back to work. But this can't go on! I call bullshit on his snow excuse. Every time he says he's going to go looking there's always a reason not to go. He did go to the next town over and put him a few applications. That took less than an hour. Then he was back home playing on the computer and doing nothing. And ya know what, that mysterious snow storm no one predicted but him, never came.

OK sorry I'm ranting. I've just had lack of sleep and disappointed in everything. Wyatt will not sleep in his bed tonight. I don't know why but sometimes he just refuses to sleep in his playpen.

He goes through these days where he sleeps just fine in it, the next he wants to be held or sleep next to me all night long. Those nights are exhausting and I've pretty much given up on getting any sleep right now. Though Wyatt is happily asleep next to me on the couch. I bet if I moved him to his bed he'd be awake in 2 seconds flat.

Friday, February 17, 2012

Would You mind your SO donating Sperm/Eggs?

There's an interesting question on Cafemom today. The question is:

Would you mind your SO donating sperm or eggs for money?

I've never really thought about it before. But my immediate response is NO. First of all, I don't see the reason why money should be spent on IVF when there are children already born that needs loving parents. If your unfortunate to have fertility issues, perhaps that is the creator telling you something. Perhaps you are meant for bigger and greater things, like adopting a child. 

I just don't see where a couple should go to such great lengths to have a biological child. Genetics does not a family make! 

Another reason I am against my Dh donating sperm is that I consider it MINE. I don't believe any man should "donate" his seed if he's not willing to raise his child. I just couldn't be OK with a child out in the world that was my husbands and not know the child. Nor could I be OK with a child with my own genetic makeup being a stranger to me. 

What about you, would you be OK with selling your own or your SO's sperm/eggs?

Prompt: The Runes

Prompt: The Runes

Bringing back an old post, one that received no replies, and one that is very important to me right now....

The Runes
Wooden runes burned by hand

 Do you use them?
Which set of runes do you use (if something other than the Elder Futhark)?
How do you use them (divination, magic, as an alphabet for writing, etc)?

If you do not know/use the runes, are you interested in it?
What is keeping you from exploring them?

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Actually, the only tarot deck I own is a Rune tarot deck. It is the first and only tarot deck I've bought for my personal use. I like it because its simple. It doesn't have a billion cards I need to memorize meanings of, and it allows me to begin a reading and let my intuition pick up the rest. I tried rune stones around the same time I bought the deck, but found the cards were easier for me to connect with. 

I use them mostly when I am confused and need some guidance, as well as use them during ritual if I want to bring about a certain result. (IE: I'll use the harvest card if I am wanting to harvest something new in my life.) 

PBP: Dedication

Dedication is simply deciding to dedicate time (Usually a year and a day) to learning and following a path. I remember when  I decided to learn more about Wicca. My grandfather had just died and of course death and the afterlife was on my mind a lot. I had to travel out of state to be with him in his final hours and attend his funeral.

Throughout my childhood my Grandmother is the biggest influence on Christianity for me. It always felt like she was worried more about appearances than what she actually professed to believe. Who cares if you wear a dress or jeans and a t-shirt? To her, it was unthinkable to not wear your "Sunday best". To her, going to church was a social event of the week.

So the weekend of my Grandfather's death and funeral, I chose the moment I viewed his body as my dedication. I had found a cross shortly before and had been wearing it in an effort to believe in Christianity. I kept looking at it, touching it, wondering if it was right for me. The moment I walked up to my grandfathers coffin and viewed his lifeless body, I knew my answer.

Because my grandfather was Christian, I left the necklace with him and made my decision to dedicate myself to Pagan study. I took more than the year and a day. It would be 5 more years before I actually decided I truly believed in Wicca.

Dedication doesn't have to be an elaborate ritual. Though you can certainly make it so if you wish! It simply has to be meaningful to you.

Tuesday, February 14, 2012

Book Review: Retribution by Sherrilyn Kenyon

So its taken me longer to read this book than it normally would have. That's not to reflect on the book but rather my busy life chasing around a newly mobile baby. I finally was able to finish it today and of course like any good book its left me wanting more.

Sherrilyn Kenyon's Dark-Hunter series is one that's been on my top list of favorites for a few years now. When I was employed doing Data entry for EDS I always checked out audio books from my local library. Upon discovering this intriguing series I rented, borrowed and bought every release, starting from the beginning.

Retribution didn't let me down and I'm happy to see that Sherrilyn diverges from the Greek pantheon for this book to focus on Native American mythology. Some of it is her own creation, other parts are stories she was told from her family, which I would love to read more about!

If you have not read the Dark-Hunter series I highly encourage you to do so. You'll fall in love with each dark-hunters story and jump for joy each time they find happiness in a woman's arms.

Macmillan audio has graciously provided this audio clip of Retribution just to entice you with Jess Brady's sexy voice. Click here to listen.

If you would like to purchase the complete audio book, visit Macmillan's website.

I'd also like to thank Magaly from Pagan Culture for sending me this book! In the words of the Tsalagi people (Cherokee) Wa-do (Wah doe). Thank you.

Monday, February 13, 2012

One Step Forward, Two Back

I feel like a Yo-yo. Just when I think I am finally crawling out of this hole something happens to push me back down. I announced a week ago that I had a new job. I was feeling pretty good about it. I was told it was a data entry position. I was informed that I'd have some data gathering responsibilities that would require me to enter the manufacturing facility. When I told the staffing agency that I have Plantar Fisciitis Inflammation and that I can't be on my feet for long they said no problem. I wouldn't be on my feet longer than 2 hrs at a time to gather data. That amount of time would cause my feet to become a little sore, but not debilitating.

I suppose after the staffing company sent me to two interviews for a clerical position and it turned out to be a factory job that I shouldn't be surprised that the description for this job was completely wrong.

But let me back up for a minute. At 5 am this morning I woke up feeling great. At last a job to help move us out of MIL's home and get us off assistance. I took my shower and did a quick Water meditation , ate breakfast, breastfed my son, and said goodbye to my family.
As I was driving out of the parking lot I see a nice fury bunny hopping out of my way. I smiled and thanked the bunny for reminding me of Spring and new beginnings. That moment was unfortunately the happiest moment of my day.

I arrive at work only to be informed that they don't have a working computer for me. The one they have is broken. I basically shadowed the other worker who does the same job all day long. Which was fine, it was a learning experience after all. However one of the very first thing my boss informs me of is that the staffing agency always tells people its a data entry job. While there is some data entry, it is far from a "data entry job". Most of the job entails walking the whole day in the manufacturing plant gathering data, learning how each station does their job and then writing directions on how the job is done for their instruction booklets. Pictures of parts are taken so it guides the user should a reference be needed. Its relatively easy once you have the information you need. But my feet just won't let me walk that much all day long. The data entry part maybe takes up an hour of my time a day. And that isn't at one sitting. Its 20 minutes here, another 30 there.

I stuck out the day, but by the end I could barely walk and I couldn't keep up with my trainer. She was having to slow her pace to wait for me which isn't fair to her.

When I got home I hugged my husband, picked my baby up and gave him a kiss and then told them I can't do it. I was trying to talk myself into at least sticking out 3 days, which is my normal time I give any job before I decide if I like it or not. But I had my doubts I could stand the 3 days. The decision was taken out of my hands when the staffing agency called some 30 minutes later and informed me that the client called and didn't want me to return because they couldn't accommodate my needs [In regards to me not being able to stand long hours].

I just feel like a complete failure. I hate to tell MIL I was fired the same day. I don't want to disappoint her. I know its not technically my fault.  I did inform them of my restrictions. But that doesn't make it OK to me. I wish I could have done the job. 

Its for the best they called to fire me, but dammit when are we going to get a break?! I hate being on assistance and it seems like the system is set up to keep you on it. I'm thinking about maybe going back to school. I'll call around and see where the closest campus are nearby and see what I could major in. Whatever it is, it will have to require I be able to sit!

P.S., I was very proud of me. I asked my boss where I could pump breast milk and she told me she'd show me the bathroom. I immediately told her that would not do because it is unsanitary. She blinked, then understood and we figured out a better place. I pumped 4 oz today. Wyatt still won't drink from a bottle or sippy but will eat oatmeal and mashed potatoes all day long. So his milk just goes into his food. He was very happy to see momma when I got home and we had some extra snuggle time.

P.P.S., I came home to find that my brother-in-law brought his little baby over. You can really tell that Wyatt and little Joe are cousins. They look almost identical. And my husband is a very smart man, but give him a camera and he'll take 4 short videos before he figures out that he has to change the settings! lol You can hear him saying, "Why didn't it flash!". Um, because your taking a video silly man! Hehe.

Little Joe (left) and Wyatt (right)

Saturday, February 11, 2012

Tough Love Parenting

So the latest viral video is this father who found a Facebook post written by his daughter. In it she disrespects her family. As a parent I have to say, Bravo Dad. Though I do disagree a bit with her punishment.

Take a look at the video.

I consider myself a strict parent. Just because your a minor doesn't mean you get to sit on your bottom watching TV, playing with your friends, and eating my food without helping out around the home. In essence, I practice NILF (Nothing In Life is Free). If your a dog trainer you can appreciate that I stole that from dog training methods! lol.

But though children aren't dogs, the basic principle is the same. Children need a job too. Their job is to go to school and help around the home. I'm not talking about making children our slaves. But a few chores teaches them to appreciate what is given to them and a sense of pride in what they accomplish.

I was also raised not to waste resources. So this is where I disagree with Mr. Jordan. At the end of the video he puts several bullets into his daughters lap top. While I can appreciate the message he's trying to send his daughter, I think that could have been accomplished more effectively by making her give her laptop to someone else more deserving or having her sell her laptop and giving the proceeds to charity. Her physically giving away her possession teaches her that if she's going to abuse her privileges then this is the consequence. I know he teaches that by destroying the laptop too, but at least my way someone more deserving can use the laptop. At least there is a higher purpose if something good can come out of something bad.

This also brings up another point about social media. I just don't allow it! My daughter is only 10, so technically she's not suppose to have a Facebook account. Though plenty of her peers already do. We allow Sierra to play FB games on our account, but she isn't allowed an account of her own, and she won't anytime soon. She also isn't allowed an iPad, cell phone, etc... My belief is if she can't buy it herself, she can't have it. Those things are to wait when she is supporting herself. We rely too much on being connected to media outlets, and I don't think that is always a good thing for our youth.

Are you a strict parent? Do you agree with what this father did?

Friday, February 10, 2012

C is for Cold

So I hadn't really planned my second C blog this week. Honestly since Tuesday I've felt like a toasted shit sandwich. I'm starting to wonder if I need the help of someone who has taken online nursing classes. It makes it even worse since I breastfeed and hate to take any medication.  I did break down and take a little Theraflu today. I suppose it was a good thing that my new job is doing an audit this week, which meant they chose I start work next week. I just hope I feel better by Monday. Regardless I'll go because lets be honest you can't call in sick your first day of work. So even if I felt like I was on my deathbed I'd go.

I take vitamin c when I'm sick, but other than that I'm leery of taking herbs when breastfeeding. Some of them are not baby friendly. I'd rather not take the chance. Not to mention even if I wanted to I couldn't afford them.

Sorry if my thoughts sound jumbled. I'm kind of out of it for now.

What do you do for a cold?

Sunday, February 5, 2012

Crafts & Life

So I said in my last entry that I'd post pictures soon. Here they are. These two crafts were relatively quick. I say relatively because I took my good ol' time doing them. But realistically they can be completed within an hour or two.

Butterfly hair accessory
 Sierra loves her butterfly hair band. Its cute and simple to make! Below is the butterfly tutorial. The band is half double crochet (2 rows). Check your length on the first chain stitch so you know you have the size you need to fit. After you've completed two rows of HDC slip stitch to join the ends.

Valentines Heart Bag
This bag I did the Tunisian (Afghan) stitch until I had the size I wanted. You can make it wider and longer by just adding stitches and rows. Then I took red and single crochet the sides together. The single crochet makes a nice boarder. The handle is also single crochet. I tried a couple different ways to crochet a heart, but I found the following tutorial to be the easiest.

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Now on to my mundane life. Since I spoke about Balance in the family and becoming the leader, I've found that part of our barrier to moving forward has been taken down! Yippee. It's amazing how much just changing ones perspective does for ones life.  I start my new job tomorrow. Everyone keeps asking me if I'm nervous. Well no, I'm not nervous. I am apprehensive, hopeful and curious. I'm not sure exactly what I'll be doing besides some clerical work. I know it's more than that however since the job requires me to have steel toe shoes. I am sad that I won't be home with Wyatt. I've tried to be extra cuddly with him these past few days because I know I'm going to miss him terribly. Though I'm sure daddy will take good care of him. 
Wyatt doesn't drink from a sippy or bottle well, so we are dealing with separation issues. I've had to spend a lot of money on items I need for work and I won't get paid for two weeks. These are all life's little growing pains I hope one day I can look back on and smile. Hopefully soon we'll be able to afford a new place to live. After that my goal will be to bring my dog Kota home! One step at a time though. 

Until then, I wish you all Blessings, Love, and Light. I leave you with this quote. 

Don't be afraid to give your best to what seemingly are small jobs.  Every time you conquer one it makes you that much stronger.  If you do the little jobs well, the big ones will tend to take care of themselves.  ~Dale Carnegie

Saturday, February 4, 2012

Turning the Tide

So I have some interesting news. Today I received a letter stating we are being sanctioned. Despite the fact that DH did what our case worker told him to do, we will not receive TANF for a month. That sucks, because I know DH has been working his ass off. We can protest it, which we will, but the case worker wasn't there today so it will have to wait till Monday.

But that may not matter since I also had a job offer not 30 minutes after reading the letter. I go for a drug test and orientation today. I'll be basically the office help. Not sure what else because the lady was pretty vague on the job description. But I hope this is another step in turning the tide. We need this change, though the momma in me screams NO because I don't want to leave my sons side. I know he's going to have a rough time transitioning and if I'm being honest so will I.
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How was everyone's Imbolc? I bet your just as eager as I to see the coming Spring. I spent the day crocheting a little bag for my daughter. Her school makes Valentines boxes but they are so generic. She wanted something special so I decided a little white hand bag with a cute red heart would be perfect for all her Valentines cards. I'm not sure if her teacher will allow her to use it in school, but she can transfer them to the bag after she's out of school. Or she can use the bag for something else. Its very cute but unfortunately the batteries in my mouse died so I stole a battery out of my camera. I have some other creations I've yet to photograph as well I'd like to share. 

Friday, February 3, 2012

PBP: Coincidence

Right next to our bed is boxes with all of our things we packed when we moved in with MIL. For the past few days I've been looking at a cell phone box marked pictures so today I decided to open it when I woke up this morning and just nose around. What I found were a lot of pictures of course, and a memorial pamphlet from my husbands boss who died last year. What really stood out to me is that he died one year exactly from my sons due date. (May 8th). Now you may be thinking, so what? It's just coincidence. Well I don't believe in coincidences. I think everything happens for a reason whether we find out that reason in time or not.

What about you? Do you have events most people would label coincidence happen? Do you think there is such a thing as coincidence or do you believe all things have a reason?

Wednesday, February 1, 2012

30 Truths

So originally this is set up to be 30 days of truths. I've had it saved in my drafts for months but honestly I don't want to do it in days. So I'm just going to do it as one entry of 30 truths. 

  1. Day 01 Something you hate about yourself. - I think I've probably already answered this one today. My teeth is definitely something I've always hated about me.
  2. Day 02 Something you love about yourself. - My giving nature. Though I've taken quite a few hits over being so giving. I've had to learn how to balance between being giving and not giving too much of myself that it hurts.
  3. Day 03 Something you have to forgive yourself for. - Hmm.. I could go into how I should have forgave my father or some such nonsense. But it would be a lie. I really don't know of anything I need to or want to forgive myself for.
  4. Day 04 Something you have to forgive someone for. - See above. Same answer.
  5. Day 05 Something you hope to do in your life. - Travel. I'd love to see every state and travel to Scotland and Ireland.
  6. Day 06 Something you hope you never have to do. - Grieve for a lost child.
  7. Day 07 Someone who has made your life worth living for. - Husband and children.
  8. Day 08 Someone who made your life hell, or treated you like shit. - Her name is Meg, and she teased me endlessly in high school till one time I grew tired of her pulling my hair so I hit her in her kidneys. She never teased me again.
  9. Day 09 Someone you didn't want to let go, but just drifted. - Well a group of someone. My high school friends. They were into some things I was not though and it was for the best.
  10. Day 10 Someone you need to let go, or wish you didn't know. -  My brother
  11. Day 11 Something people seem to compliment you the most on. - My eyes. DH loves my bright blue eyes.
  12. Day 12 Something you never get compliments on. - Honestly I don't believe anyone has really complimented me on anything besides my Dh.
  13. Day 13 A band or artist that has gotten you through some tough ass days. (write a letter.) I'm not writing a letter. I suppose most of the well known rock bands like Metallica, Ozzy Ozborne, etc..
  14. Day 14 A hero that has let you down. (letter) - Never really had a hero.
  15. Day 15 Something or someone you couldn't live without, because you've tried living without it. - Animals. I must have at least one. Having my dog live with my mother is torture right now.
  16. Day 16 Someone or something you definitely could live without. - I could live without the extra weight! Maybe one day I'll loose it.
  17. Day 17 A book you've read that changed your views on something. - The Celestine Prophecy and its sequels. It really helped shape my views on energy.
  18. Day 18 Your views on gay marriage. - I don't care who anyone else wants to marry. Don't see why anyone should care but the couple getting married. I think we need more love in this world, not less.
  19. Day 19 What do you think of religion? Or what do you think of politics? Both can be positive or negative. Both I make a rule never to discuss in certain company and at work.
  20. Day 20 Your views on drugs and alcohol. - I stay away from both unless prescribed. Or I just want to get shit faced. Never have done drugs and never will though. In 5th grade I signed the DARE pledge and meant it. *wink*
  21. Day 21 (scenario) Your best friend is in a car accident and you two got into a fight an hour before. What do you do? -Go see my friend at the hospital. Do energy work to aide in healing. We can deal with our fight later.
  22. Day 22 Something you wish you hadn't done in your life. - Dated a few men before DH.
  23. Day 23 Something you wish you had done in your life. - Went to college straight out of HS.
  24. Day 24 Make a playlist to someone, and explain why you chose all the songs. (Just post the titles and artists and letter) - The Rose by Bette Meddler. For my mom who loves that song. God of Thunder because DH would haunt me if I didn't play is favorite Kiss song.
  25. Day 25 The reason you believe you're still alive today. - Because I'm suppose to be.
  26. Day 26 Have you ever thought about giving up on life? If so, when and why? - One time when I was young, stupid and felt like I was invisible.
  27. Day 27 What's the best thing going for you right now? - My family and not much else.
  28. Day 28 What if you were pregnant or got someone pregnant, what would you do? - Well I'd freak because having 3 kids just wouldn't be a good idea financially. Not to mention, I had a tubal ligation so I'd be asking my doctor what he did wrong!
  29. Day 29 Something you hope to change about yourself. And why. - My physical appearance. Because it needs to be done. I'm getting dentures and once I have my own home where I am in control of what kind of foods are in the house I'll go on a diet again.
  30. Day 30 A letter to yourself, tell yourself EVERYTHING you love about yourself- I love that I'm me.


Your comments encourage me to keep writing! Thank you for visiting and sharing your thoughts with me.

Blessed Be,