Reflection Of Me

“When you're a beautiful person on the inside, nothing in the world can change that about you. Jealousy is the result of one's lack of self-confidence, self-worth, and self-acceptance. The Lesson: If you can't accept yourself, then certainly no one else will.” ― Sasha Azevedo

 

  One of the pivotal times in my life is when someone said these words to me. I remember I was sitting in my living room crying over something. I don't remember why I was crying but my husband (At the time we were not even dating) came in and he saw me before I could hide my tears. Of course he asked what was wrong and eventually got me to admit I didn't feel beautiful and had little self-worth. Then he said, "Robin, if you don't love yourself no one else will. You should be the most important person to you." 

Those words really changed my life, because before then I had always measured my self worth by how others treated me. Since most people treated me like a mangy stray dog, needless to say I really had a low opinion of myself. 

Looking back now, I can't believe the person I was back then. I just want to scream at that version of me to hold her head up. Don't apologize so much. Believe in yourself! I want to hug that version of me and tell me it's OK to be different. 

Many Pagan teens go through this. There's a point in their life where its more important to be with the crowd than against it. So I just want to remind those who may be going through something similar to hold your head up and love yourself first. Only when I began to love myself, did I find love in another.